The days leading up to today have been rough; long sleepless nights, missing my grandfather, thoughts about picking up and moving my life back to Pennsylvania, and loneliness. Today makes a full year since my grandfather left us. I have never experienced a death that affected me so much, to the point where I could no longer mask the pain. I can be a very stoic person, its never been easy for me to express how I'm feeling or talk about what I'm going through but when I was in what felt like my darkest hour my boyfriend read these bible verses to me:
Daniel 10:8-12 NIV
"8 So I was left alone, gazing at this great vision; I had no strength left, my face turned deathly pale and I was helpless. 9 Then I heard him speaking, and as I listened to him, I fell into a deep sleep, my face to the ground.
10 A hand touched me and set me trembling on my hands and knees. 11 He said, “Daniel, you who are highly esteemed, consider carefully the words I am about to speak to you, and stand up, for I have now been sent to you.” And when he said this to me, I stood up trembling. 12 Then he continued, “Do not be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them."
Today is a warm and sunny day the opposite of the cold and cloudy day we buried my Pop-pop. In memory of him I promise to smile all day and be thankful for his life and mine. He lived a full life and touched many. I can hear him telling stories and laughing now.
so pretty. the turban looks great on you.
ReplyDeleteLove the turban on you
ReplyDeleteThat was so sweet. You look so chic yet casual. What is the name of the lipcolor you are wearing?
ReplyDeleteLove it!
ReplyDeleteFabulous look!
ReplyDeleteGreat post! I loved reading some of the memories you have of your grandfather...Needed to hear the scripture your BF shared with you today too!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much ladies!
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Cheryl, I am so happy it helped you too.
I'm new to reading your blog...and I love it. Love your look for this day, really like the turban.
ReplyDeleteMost of all I love that scripture and needed to hear that today. I lost my kids dad, my dad and grand dad in 2000, 2002 and 2003 and they still live very much in my heart. I often am amazed at how much room I have left there for others. But time does make dealing with those wounds a little easier but you'll still have those moments.